and another thank you, Lord,
and another, and another, for gifts we do not even ask for. today was a special and amazing day. thank you so much. love, undeserving and amazed me
I had a professor one time [who] said, “Class, you will forget almost...– Rich Mullins
Joy does not simply happen to us. We have to choose joy and keep choosing it...– Henri Nouwen
sometimes i wonder, Lord,
who i even am. am i … a corporate lawyer? a friend to certain others? a young maiden? (ha) a girly girl who likes beautiful things? a person who wants to be seen, noticed, recognized? and yes. i know that the theological answers say: none of the above even approach your eternally rooted identity. lately i feel as though my heart is at war with itself. and for stretches of...
… and if I perish, I perish. Esther 4:16 have not written in a while!
to always say
But may all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you; may those who long for your saving help always say, “The Lord is great!” 5 But as for me, I am poor and needy; come quickly to me, O God. You are my help and my deliverer; Lord, do not delay. (psam 70)
work is hard sometimes. work is really hard sometimes. it is 50% i-see-the-good-in-it and 50% hard/potentially embittering and spirit-crushing and makes-me-feel-like-i-am-just-a-terrible-low-and-down-thingggg, i would say. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the...
i think that watching this over the course of the past couple of days has changed my life.
this is so strange.
i am at work and it is the most stressful crazy morning ever. but … i am having fun. WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! HUH?!!!!! OH MAH GOODNESS WHAT IS HAAAAAAAAAAPPENING……………? While we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die—but...
that old p word.
pride! bleh… pride. there are really only three reactions that i have to watching any dance video: 1) S.S.S. - this stands for Secret Smug Satisfaction. smug because i believe that the choreography is not very good; i could have done better; i could have choreographed better; i wonder what gives this person such confidence as to enable them to post this in public, as a reflection of...
a quick shout out before i get ready.
… and all the while, i am learning that there is joy in obedience. i love you, Lord. you are my redeemer. Jesus, you are the Lord of my sinfulness and you are my redeemer. i love you.
and that is why the past still mystifies, touches,...
“ The past is beautiful because one never realizes an emotion at the time. It expands later, and thus we don’t have complete emotions about the present, only about the past … . That is why we dwell on the past, I think. “ - V. Woolf
word to the wise
note that i just wrote to a person a few minutes ago. dear m, At work right now. I was about to submit a big set of pleadings to the same girl who got very upset at me last time but I decided to double check my work just in case. Thank the Lord that I did! I think I found more than several gigantic errors in half of the docs. I get scared just thinking about what would have happened if I...
redux: java jolt joy
today at work, that coffee thing quite saved me. trubilee: oh my goodness coffee is amazing. what CLARITY! and physical DRIVE! i know it’s not an ideal relationship, human body+coffee, but at this finals-approaching time in my life, i do believe it was God’s little superpresent to me.
sunny and chilly outside my window.
glad to be at work today, and glad to have a job. i want to be alwayscurious. alwaysgrateful.
“I will refresh the weary and satisfy the faint.” At this I awoke and looked around. My sleep had been pleasant to me. - jeremiah 31: 25-26 i love waking up with no alarm clock. thank you, Lord! i want to wait upon you. i want to want to wait upon you!!!!!!
beaming. XoD thank you, Lord!!!! justice. JUSTICE!!!!! JUSTICE……
truthnotshells: pitted sour cherries + almond extract + kuzu root (as a thickener) + brown sugar + oats + almond flour + cinnamon & nutmeg & cloves + sour cherry juice. simple as that!
My eyes and my heart will always be there.– 2 Chronicles 7:16
“ … it involves resting in Him, believing what He says, and following His directions in every part of your life. “
good or bad?
the way that a little bit of encouragement from just one person (my boss) can make me feel hope at work again. (i think… not always good. but if a gift from God, then good. no? dunno.)
sometimes, it’s better just to pay the $140 and move on.
this morning it snows. it’s beautiful so i went out on my balcony to snap four pictures. i ate oatmeal. (that was a strange decision). the oatmeal settled into a warm little mealy mound in my tummy. i feel good.
conversations with dad, take 3
me: anyway this boy she is seeing is too [good looking]
me: so we must pray that he is good to her. i don't trust very cute boys
Appa: u hope he is the exception and mature enough to appreciate [her] many wonderful beauties.
you cannot give what has not been given to you.
conversations with dad, take 2
me: hi appa+
Appa: Hi Trudy :)
me: oh appa. Work life is so hard!
Appa: Think about Jacob working so hard to get Rachel for 7+7+7 years. He got 4 wives, 12 sons and a fortune
me: lol. okay appa. i will think about jacob.
conversations with dad
me: hello appa
me: i love you
Appa: I love u more than my life
me: thanks appa!!!!!!!!!!!!! you make me feel precious even when i feel like a loser
Appa: U r NEVER NEVER loser no matter what!
two mile walk to a happy...
:o) still giggling. so happy. thank you, God. for honoring baby baby steps of faith and tiny but trying-to-be-sincere little gestures of obedience.
God, let me think clearly and brightly; let me live, love, and say it well in...– Sylvia Plath, The Journals of Sylvia Plath (via pirateshipsandrabbitholes)
mess of thots.
indomitable. i will admit it. i used to look down on people who let their jobs dictate their mood for the entirety of their days. after all, a good attitude is all it takes to conquer stress, i believed, and thinking positive thoughts injects bright colors that permeate the whole day! one can always learn something in all situations, if one would only maintain a curious eye. spirit! moxie!...
the next thing
From an old English parsonage down by the sea There came in the twilight a message to me; Its quaint Saxon legend, deeply engraven, Hath, it seems to me, teaching from Heaven. And on through the doors the quiet words ring Like a low inspiration: “DO THE NEXT THING.” Many a questioning, many a fear, Many a doubt, hath its quieting here. Moment by moment, let down from Heaven, Time,...
The lesson I learned from this is that it’s easier to hold to your principles...– h last year.
When Satan tells me I am a sinner he comforts me greatly, since Christ died for...– Martin Luther (via loudhannah)
One day I decided that I was beautiful, and so I carried out my life as if I was...– Gabourey Sidibe (via thatquote)
maybe not for the right reasons (i just had a vision of the streets of my hometown and its adjoining regions and for those few seconds it washed me with an entirely different feeling than the one i possess now… if you could even call this current tension a feeling), but still. homesick.
”Stay close to any sounds that make you glad you are alive.– for me, it is the sound of daisy’s optimus prime voice.
woman. heart. [like] Jesus.
i want to be courageous.
splashed coffee and a napkin.
i think God just spoke to me in this very moment that in every circumstance, from littlest to big, He will provide. through ways i will not always understand and with facilitation that makes His provision seem … so easy to receive, He will provide. always and always. - the B student, who is working all throughout new year’s eve and day.
my... job, currently:
oh, the fear. it is characterized by fear. my fear of messing up, of making mistakes, of coming off as lazy, or incompetent, or unworthy. all things that i have actually been persuaded to believe in reference to this job. i know this is not where you want my thoughts to end. staying here would be a brutally s l o w death. Joshua i am not right now. no warrior in sight. just my...
There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.– Maya Angelou (via thatquote)